Where do I belong to ?

Where do I belong to ? What am I doing right now ?

In today's blog i won't be talking much about style or outfits like my earlier posts. Today i really wanted to share my thoughts about life which flows every minutes. It is based on my experiences where I met lot of people, interacting with them, got sorted in many communities, and learn lessons from it. Somehow i was thinking if my surrounding was the best place for me and determines my future, but who knows after i moved out from where i used to be, my perceptions about life has changed. Let me share my thoughts and you can assume these as my opinions.

Well, I decided to take my title as "Where I belong to ?". It means a lot, like; am i at the right place right now?; will people surround me affect my future?; will people underestimate me if i do this nor that?; Am I looked awkward if I do this or that?; And if they underestimate me, will it affect my future? Lot of questions pass in my mind, and the struggles make it harder to find out who i really am. And after many experiences i've been through, my conclusion about those questions is; the more you care about others thoughts, the less confident you would be, it doesn't mean you don't hear advices and criticsm, but you should be able to differ which one is an input and which one is just a scoff. I bet from hundred thousands of people in the world there must be persons who love to talk back, including in your environment. And to take after their acts, there's nothing you should do since their opinions won't give you any benefits.

For me, there are people who thinks they are good enough and underestimating others whether consciously or not, there are good people without the awareness of how good they are and they inspire others, and there are also good people and just be good for themselves even they're not underestimating others. Those kinds of people were found step by step as i am living my life, before i met the good inspiring ones, my first benchmark is absolutely the one who i met first, and i want to relate this to my school life back then.

When i was in the high school, i was a bit more close minded, I assume the existence of  a person in a community is rated by how good they are in searching their images, how well dressed they are, how cool is their life style, be known by others, perceived as a cool person, always up to date, visit the fancy places, go to concert or club, and therefore it might bring successful. I'm not saying these kind of people are bad, but I have felt some of them are having awful personality. However i agree with one thing; to be a part of the community we should adapt with the lifestyle, and here comes the obstacles if you don't find proper friends who can encourage, support, and always be there when you are in your lower level. Not few people who only be there when you are in your prime whilst leaving while you're nothing.

 

After few years since i have left my high school, my mindsets slowly changed because there were no more influences from high school. Now, I can relate lot of aspects in life with more open minded. And one thing that extremely shifts is how i value a person in becoming a part of a community. now, i don't see my friends back then with cool lifestyle is cool anymore, with branded stuffs is still high class, with popularity is still popular. I don't see any specialize of it again right now, cause my benchmark shifted already and I saw lot of more inspiring people near me who made me aware the aim of life.

Top : Gaudi
Cullotes : The Excecutive
Slippers : Marie Claire
Bag : Charles & Keith

Therefore, the purpose of my blog is to build awareness of the actions we should take if we find negative aura near us. Don't take it serious, just prove yourself you are better then them, and i warn you'll never know if you are better than them cause they won't say it directly, so just live your life well and everything goods will come to you.

It's the end of my blog, hope it's inspiring, see you on my next post.